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2006, Feb. 20th, | 01:07 pm
mood: contemplative contemplative
music: 311

Hey. This.. Is so wierd.
I can't believe that I haven't been on here in forever.
Maybe I should start back up.
It's to be considered.

Song?:
4. Speak Easy - (3:26)
If there's a scream inside of you just let it go
you're beating yourself up baby don't you know
you've got to get through and lift the roof off your soul

It's like a pain locked in a part of your heart
it's never gonna leave it unless you start
to warm it up, be wise and be smart

Out on the ocean
there's no one around
no one to hear a sound
it's just us out here
out on the ocean
speaking freely

Away from the city
away from the ears that
bug us and judge us
it's so liberating
to be free
and my heart slows down

Nice and easy
and your breathing will be pleasing
just speak easy
and say what's on your mind
I search for something to compare you to
thought long and hard for a simile true
now I'm suddenly aware
end the quest you're beyond compare
so speak easy

If there's a shadow in your life then there's sunshine
things turning inside out all the time
just rewind, it's all in your mind

Ooh so speak easy
out here we're floating
late in the night
and the only light to guide us
is a full moon that's glowing
on the sea

Nice and easy
and your breathing will be pleasing
just speak easy
and say what's on your mind
I search for something to compare you to
thought long and hard for a simile true
now I'm suddenly aware
end the quest you're beyond compare
so speak easy
speak easy
speak easy
speak easy

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I decided. I'd update.

2005, Oct. 23rd, | 07:06 pm
mood: crushed crushed
music: Fall Out Boy -- Sugar we're going down

1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.


Wow. I haven't been on here in forever. Not much in my life has changed though.
I still love the people that hurt me the most and I still hurt the people that I love the most.

It's amazing how little some people change over the course of 6 months.

MySpace is where it's at.

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2005, Jun. 19th, | 09:14 pm
mood: pensive pensive
music: "...oh cherriot.. Ill sing it outloud"??

It's so strange. I feel like my life is not in my control. I mean I know it is, but sometimes I just feel so, not me. I guess I'm starting to get scared about truely growing up. I mean, school will be even more important this comming a year, it'll be so odd because it just means I'm that much closer to going to college. It means I have to.. iono. I guess my problem is that I don't feel like I belong here. Like, hearing about all the shit that really happens in the world.. It makes me want to just, not be here. And I mean here like, in a not alive state. My mood feels so blah. life just feels so unreal. All the happy stuff, feels happy, but I feel like there's somethoing missing from me. I feel so incomplete. ::sigh:: my rant must bore you. and furthermore, I bet that it doesn't make sense.

g'night.



--I'm out

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2005, May. 11th, | 10:16 pm
mood: ::sigh:: ::sigh::
music: The roar of my hungry stomach.

Ya'know what?  I like my brothers computer.  It lets me do things that I can't otherwise on my MAC.  Which, sucks and that's all there is to it.  But so anyways.  Anthony and I broke up.  Monday.  I'm okay.  It's funny though, cos although he's just my friend, I still feel that he can never "just be my friend".  It's almost as if that's impossible.  ::sigh::  He's just so cute.

Maybe I'm in love?

Do you want to see?  Probably not, let me try and put a picture up...

Oh, I have a Myspace account by the way: meh

Here's a lyric you might like:

Some people wait a lifetime, for a moment like this, for that ONE special Kiss. (I did, still do)

Hotties.  Well, not me.  And it probably isn't a cute picture to you.  But I love  it!!!

 

I saw SAW the other day.  Funny shit.  Let me quote.  "I don't care if you cover yourself in peanut butter and have a 15 hooker gang bang!!!"  Or how about... "All I remember is going to sleep in my shithole of an apartment, and waking up in and actual shithole."  That was sooo funny.  Go rent it, and be grossed out buy the gore.  Or the toilet, whatever floats.

 

later then.

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2005, May. 2nd, | 07:34 pm

So rally. I didn't cry. And it doesn't make sense, because it was very sad indeed. I lost the election. But I wasn't sad about that. Why you may ask. Because Brodie is such a great person and I know he'll bring great things to the region. I also have finally grasped the concept of divine order, and know that/and feel that next time is really going to be my time. I miss some of the seniors; andrew, david, paige and alex.. And maybe some others. But I didn't cry, I don't know why. And two people gave really good and meaningful truth talks, Shands and Marj. They are the only two who seem to be able to reach me on a more profound level. This rally, felt so different. I'm extremely exited about confrence. I will get to see Rebecca and Shands, and I want to be a family group leader. I dyed my hair, blue.
strikeout
Funky.

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Would you stand up and walk out on me?

2005, Apr. 23rd, | 07:40 pm
mood: pleased pleased
music: Beatles.

What would you do, If i sang out of tune?
Would you stand up and walk out on me


one week.



ONE WEEK.



I WAS anticipating this.. But now, I'm not.

I don't know what happened.

I mean, I want to go.

But I'm not as excited as I normally am.

Normally, I'm like a ball of energy.

But as of today, Saturday the 23rd of April, I am not.

maybe as the week goes on it will.

well, running for office makes me nervous, but not excited.

okay, now that I've thought about it, I can feel the butterflies.

I'm such a loser.

A certain someone is mad at me.

And I have to face them at rally.

I don't want to.

They have been the biggest asshole I have ever met, to me.

I will forgive them, because it is in my nature to forgive.

::sigh::

I want you to come Jasper..

::sigh::

Once again, I'm a loser.

We have a international Officer comming.

This is the only thing, so far that excites me more than the rest.



Live life to the fullest.



Why do you?
Build me up
(build me up)
Buttercup baby
just to let me down?!

and Push me around..



That's the team song.

<3 My softball girls. <3

****<3 Jessy****

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2005, Apr. 17th, | 08:28 am
mood: blah blah
music: the distillers

School. Sucks.

And that's all there is to it.

My life. Sucks

And thats all there is to it.



I'm tired.

My life has become so.. repeatative.

Wake up, go to school, go to practice, come home, eat, hw, sleep.
Wake up, go to school..

never anything new.

::sigh::

i want to trade in mine for a new one.

-jes

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I hear you on the radio.

2005, Apr. 10th, | 10:40 am
mood: restless restless
music: incubus

To be completely honest, I'm happy. It seems that it's taken me awhile to be happy again. But here I am. Happy.

I'm very Tired, and worried about school. Wanna see my report card?

MA A
EN A
SC A
CD A
CATS A
WC C

Tha would make my GPA a 3.75 Why? cos I rock.

good night.

Im failing. I'm a failure to society.

If only you knew, but you have no Idea.

rally soon.

de-lovely.

::shudders::

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::sigh::

2005, Mar. 27th, | 06:59 pm
mood: pensive pensive
music: radio.

March, in like a lion, out like a lamb. April showers bring May flowers.

So, Easter is here. It's Easter. Easter sucked. But the days leading up to it weren't too bad, tha days followqing, well, I haven't gotten to them yet. I want to have softball practice, because we have a game Wednesday and Thursday. My excitement for such events isn't really at its height yet. I don't really want to go back to school, but I do because I want to get it over with. We have two months and two weeks left. That's all. It's really quite shocking because I have all these church affiliated things going on.

Lets go throught them.
~First we have a Lock-in, of which Abbie and I are planning. I'm excited to do something that will bring our chapter closer together.
~Next there's Leadership training, Abbie and I are both attending, because we both want to run for an office in late April. This I'm scared, nervous and excited about. i'm not sure hat to expect, but, I think it'll go smoothly.
~Then there's finally Rally. Whoa buddy. Talk about a very nerve-racking thing. Makes me so scared. My competition is Brodie,and maybe others. I'm only partly nervour about running against him because he has more friends than I do, but because I don't know him, I really don't know what chance I have. I really have no idea how he will respond to the questions, and whatnot. I hope I don't get to nervous. Chilling, really.

And, usfortunetly, I'll be missing Anthonys birthday, he's so mad at me. It bothers me, because I wish he'd be more supportive about me going, instead of trying to talk me out of going to rally. I mean, I won't be missing that much of his birthday, I'll probably be at his house around.. 3 and he'll probably jam the Friday and Saturday leading up to his brthday anyways.. Where him and his friends will drink and whatnot. Because that's what they do.

School, Softball, Anthony, Church.
Softball, Anthony, church, School.

How to blance.

You know, I think life is really one big balancing act. Nothing less, nothing more.

<3<3<3 Anthony <3<3<3

--Jessy

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Live your life to the fullest, so i can end mine.

2005, Mar. 13th, | 07:34 pm
mood: lonely lonely
music: dashboard

Describe yourself using one band and song titles from that band

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Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:the distillers
Are you male or female:young girl
Describe yourself:I am a reverant
How do some people feel about you:hate me
How do you feel about yourself:sick of it all
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:lordy lordy
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:love is paranoid
Describe where you want to be:seneca falls
Describe what you want to be:solvent
Describe how you live:desperate
Describe how you love:blackheart
Share a few words of wisdombeat your heart out

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